Blogs faded with social media, and I too went from the blog to social media. However, 4 years ago I went off social media. Deleted all the accounts, and realized I missed the documentation of my life (but I don't miss the relentless scroll of curated perfection, ceaseless advertising, and the unsolicited spectacle of political opinions). My two main readers, my mom and grandmother, have since passed away. But I suppose this is for me now. My corner of the world.
I thought this summer would be very different. My mom was diagnosed with cancer in July 1, 2024. She passed on August 27, 2024. It was fast. I thought this year and this summer I would be flying home a lot to be with her. However, in a blessing of mercy she was spared. It doesn't make the goodbye any easier. I’m still haunted by the image of her body lying cold and still in the casket. What she looked like in the hospital saying my final goodbyes and thank yous. Which I know, she hates. She wouldn't me thinking of that, and I try to correct it. I quickly think instead of our last trip together. We took a road trip to Dollywood. All my mom wanted to do was go through the Smokey Mountains with me. We did. I drove through the beautiful scenery, blasting John Denver and Dolly Parton. We talked about the Royal Family and sharks.
I started this blog in 2008 and 17 years later some things are the same, and many things are different. This year I lost my mom, turned 40 and celebrated 20 years of marriage. Dixie and Sydney passed away, and we have two new dogs Jack and Mesa. The girls are teenagers, and I found my first white hair last week. Life is still full of wonders, unpredictability and many many mishaps.
